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The fuck. [10 May 2007|08:39am]
Sometimes, things you don't expect to happen, happen.
Sometimes you're watching a good movie with your girlfriend,
Sometimes you wake up suddenly.

Your girlfriend is gone, your best friend is flying around the house,
there is a bottle of pills half wedged in your mouth.

Live and learn.

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[26 Apr 2007|02:41pm]
I have an uncanny ability to f#ck things up.
Destruction is probably my most developed
talent. Eight months ago I purchased a near
perfect jeep cherokee, now requiring several
hundred dollars in bodywork.

Eight months ago, I was also given a gift from God.
In spite of the daily opportunity to throw it away,
in spite of a lack of public respect, in spite of
people trying to steal it, and steal me from it,
it... this love of ours, has prevailed.

Sometimes the burdens of my responsibilities
are blatently crushing, I find it nothing short of
miraculous that I, to this day have not lost
the girl i love.

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[24 Apr 2007|03:08pm]
I've learned-that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved.
The rest is up to them.

I've learned- that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned-that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned- that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned-that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better know something.

I've learned-that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do.

I've learned- that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned-that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I've learned-that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned- that you can keep going long after you can't.

I've learned-that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned-that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I've learned-that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned-that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned-that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I've learned-that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned-that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I've learned-that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned-that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you are to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned-that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned-that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could
change your life forever.

I've learned-that two people can look at the exact same thing and see
something totally different.

I've learned-that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I've learned-that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I've learned-that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

I've learned-that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.

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[30 Mar 2007|11:46am]
Laughing at my last entry, i would call myself a lucky boy.

I never had to worry about a car hurting me.

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[08 Jul 2005|05:19am]
Been taking the bike to the gym lately, a 20 mile ride that has become strikingly easy.... i suppose old muscles grow quickly when flexed.



I may have to give up my favorite thing in the world...... im hard pressed to find people who understand that, who take pleasure in the purr of an engine, who willl turn the heat up when idling just to cool the motor, rest their foot on the throttle like you rest your hand on your true loves heart, the kind of people who after everyones gotten out of the car will pet the steering wheel and gaze at the guages...........



what the hell is wrong with me?

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well.... [24 May 2005|12:48am]
i hAte it when autocomplete tries to write m,y journal entries 4 me. a few words of wisdom spoken tonight.. hopefilly i get them right cause i've had a bit to drink and this chicken tastes like vodka.....

if no one talks there's nothing to hear

oh no no, this is a good Andrew

i forgot the rest but the point was driven home.... hey oz, if u rememnber then post the rest as comments.

peace! al sharpton 4 prez yall!

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[20 May 2005|03:28pm]
one day im going to ask myself when my hygenic tools became pneumatic (compressed air powered)

забудьте это

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[19 May 2005|05:33pm]
did you ever feel as if you were absolutely undeniably useless?
maybe theres a reason i cant put down roots in buffalo, maybe im
not destined to be here.

maybe im a reject of society and i should get castrated so i
dont creep out decent people.

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[16 May 2005|07:14pm]
i dont know which disappoints me more, that she has a boyfriend, or that mike got the money.
thats a kicker.

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[11 May 2005|12:58pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

picking up the cavalier so i can start the work it needs...... what should i call her?

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[05 May 2005|09:45pm]
[ mood | calm ]

what do you think i have an answer tree growing in my back yard? wait a minute.... I Do have an answer tree in my back yard..... who planted that!?

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..... [02 May 2005|05:06pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

it was melt or shatter. i dont even know what to call the feeling now.
lets call it "fun" yeah, i think i like this.

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reverse [30 Apr 2005|01:54pm]
[ mood | distressed ]

"you're so fucked up you dont even know the disaster you caused" -Carbon Haze

nathan was hoarding all the peices, little animal things that click together to make a chain. the thin blow molded plastic only used in childs toys seemed so priceless cause i only had one peice, nathan had the rest. Sometimes i ask myself, how could i know? how could i know he just recovered from cancer? how could i know he was so fragile? but what really bothers me....... how did i know to hit him? how did i know those peices could be mine? would i do it again?


if i was a blank slate, why was my first writing done in blood?

i have taken note, i'm usually well remembered by people, a lot of people know me very well. I am however not present in many photo albums, its a dull pain cause you cant be sure of intent. maybe my family just doesnt have any pictures of me. maybe someone ran out of film. im scared because as my memory shifts, im afraid i'll lose the 29 happiest days of my life. i have no proof they ever existed, no documents saved, no pictures, no f**king metro tickets, no scars, no detention slips, no concert tickets. nothing. I've always said, if it's really important, you wont forget.

jeff was going after meatball just after lunch, maybe it was because i dont like jeff, or because i didnt feel like violence, but i stopped jeff from attacking meatball, for whatever reason, using whatever method. the next day jessica calls me "drew? are you sitting down?" "Yeah, why" "lacey likes you"



Ive been moody lately, which is odd because it doesnt usually happen. at least i can recognize it.

The happiest days of my past are gone, time to make the future better.

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brewing [28 Apr 2005|12:12pm]
ive got another work of art on the way, inspired by a funny story i heard yesterday. ya'll are gonna have to wait tho cause im just on break.

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[13 Apr 2005|07:06pm]
[ mood | drained ]

my newest creation..... inspired by the remixes of sarah Mclaclin
took a while to get my software running again. 800x600 photometric
rendering with catmull/rom anialiasing.

i call it "finality complex"

 

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[09 Apr 2005|04:13pm]
why do something when you're only burning fuel and getting nowhere?

because sometimes it feels good to rev your engine in neutral.

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LIQUID POLYMER [08 Apr 2005|03:53pm]
i injection mold run flat inserts.... good stuff.
i walk into my work area, and this guy offers to shake my hand.
i'll make a long story short by saying it took me 3 hours to pry
the molten glob of polymer off my hand, but it was 3 paid hours!
turns out they have a sense of humor. Although it didnt take 3
hours for santos to pry the vacuum feeder off, its strategic
placement made it far more shocking.


i finally feel lucky to have dense and callous skin on my hand.

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[08 Apr 2005|05:34am]
Got a job at rodguard today, unlimited overtime!
instead of working with keith, i'll probably be replacing him.
well, see you guys somewhere round august!

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[05 Apr 2005|02:10pm]
missed work yesterday.... i needed a "me" day.

went job hunting today cause i need a "me" job, i applied to be a nurses assistant. men have a high acceptance rate here i guess.

tomorrow, off to EGW for another assingment hopefully....
yay

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